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So let's see today I:

  • Got my copy of the RE contract. I still can't get that damn song out of my head and that new car commercial that references deliverance isn't helping either. One of these days I may even watch the movie. It occurs to me that I have way too many random pop-culture references in my head without actually having experienced the original source. What does this have to do with anything? Nothing.
  • Worked like a dog. I worked pretty much from when I walked into the office until around 5pm-ish. I was dusty, and tired when I got home.
  • Annoyed and possibly pissed off Jenny. I intended to take a quick power nap before driving out to her apartment to help her move, but the day just came crashing down on me and the quick power nap turned into a slow actual nap. I didn't wake up until she called and I think she might be miffed at me.
  • Felt all weird about the house. I don't know, I guess I just had a sudden wave of "Yikes, what am I getting myself into?" followed by "There's no way I'm ready for this" followed by "What color should I paint the various rooms?" followed by "I wonder what kind of history I could find out about that house?" [*][**] followed by "I wonder if anyone has been born or died in that house?" followed by "Could it be haunted?" followed by "Ok, let's change the topic and let Zhaan in for company now" :)
  • Wanted to have one of 3 people right here right now in order to curl up with. Combined distance of those three people from my current location is somewhere around 3500+ miles (yes, I checked).

[*] - Manhattan Heights, El Paso, TX

[**] - Prairie Style (1900-1920) - Frank Lloyd Wright popularized this unique style which revolutionized American architecture. The Trost House on Yandell Street in Sunset Heights is an example of this style. Manhattan Heights has two examples of Prairie style-influences homes: the former home of Supreme Court Justice Sandra Day O'Connor on Federal Avenue, and another home in the 3000 block of Silver. A variation on this type of Prairie architecture is called "American Foursquare" and a wonderful example is the Quijano home in Sunset Heights. Identifying features: Low-pitched roof, usually hipped, with widely overhanging eaves; two stories, with one story wings or porches; eaves, cornices, and facade detailing emphasizing horizontal lines; often with massive, square porch supports.


Actually, I am not exactly mad at you... I didn't want to come off as 'pushy' asking where you were at. And I figured you had a long day at work.
I was asleep when you called and feeling bad for having crashed like that.

I tried to say that I could go over in a bit or help you in the morning if you needed me to, but I'm not sure if that came across as I was still waking up while we talked.

Sorry about that.
It's ok. Mostly the reason why I told you not to come out was because we were almost done, and it wouldn't have been cool of me to ask you to come all the way out to help out for a few minutes. Thankfully, most of my stuff is pretty light, and we were able to get it all done.
Wanted to have one of 3 people right here right now in order to curl up with. Combined distance of those three people from my current location is somewhere around 3500+ miles (yes, I checked).

oh man, I had that last night too... but for me the distance is only (wait, I'm checking now) 3278... though those are mapquest directions and I really wouldn't drive to california... well, ok, I will someday but not just to visit this boy... anyway, lonliness sucks. wah. I have been majorly in a mindset lately of thinking I don't know enough cool and cute people in the same state as me, largely due to watching HB meet people in NYC and realizing that NYC is just such a better place to meet people than CT is and he probably already knows more people in NYC in 3 months than I've met in CT in 3 years. *sigh*. *sigh* *sigh* *sigh*
See what worries me about times when I'm feeling like that is that I tend to wonder if my "This is not a good idea" radar is still active when I'm feeling particularly lonely.

It seems like the times that I've ended up in questionable relationships often came along when I'd been feeling particularly lonely or disconnected and perhaps I ended up pursuing someone that I might not normally pursue.

I know quite a few cute people here, but not many of them are sufficiently warped enough for me to feel comfortable pursuing them.