March 9th, 2009

it's martini time

Blah :-/

Some stuff with MGX has been really stressing me out lately. She's being phenomenal at trying to reassure me that things are ok, but unfortunately some of it is just stuff that she needs to deal with before I'm going to not be stressed about it.

Our lives are really complicated at the moment, but there's one thing I'm absolutely sure about. I really really love that girl. I've never been as in love with someone as I am with her and given the stuff that needs to be resolved that's a little terrifying. Despite the dangers in putting my heart on the line like that, I wouldn't change how I feel about her for anything, but sometimes, like tonight, it's hard not to dwell on worst case scenarios and predictably that makes for a really crappy night.

I ended up writing her a long email explaining how I felt and it looks like that helped her understand where I'm coming from better, but it'll be a while still before everything gets sorted out.

Oh well. No one said love was easy and at least I know that she's so very worth it.
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