Our lives are really complicated at the moment, but there's one thing I'm absolutely sure about. I really really love that girl. I've never been as in love with someone as I am with her and given the stuff that needs to be resolved that's a little terrifying. Despite the dangers in putting my heart on the line like that, I wouldn't change how I feel about her for anything, but sometimes, like tonight, it's hard not to dwell on worst case scenarios and predictably that makes for a really crappy night.
I ended up writing her a long email explaining how I felt and it looks like that helped her understand where I'm coming from better, but it'll be a while still before everything gets sorted out.
Oh well. No one said love was easy and at least I know that she's so very worth it.